Balancing out...

I'm feeling a little better now that I've had a chance to balance out with the side effects. I took some anti-anxiety meds to sleep last night and slept from 10 to 8 ; I was late coming into chemo. Nurse Stephanie said she was worried because I've been so punctual this week, but she know's that I really didn't want to come see her today. It tough to go back to a place you know will make you hurt more, even though you know the hurt is just part of the deal.

I slept in the chair this morning until about 10am. If you had told me that I'd be able to sleep with a needle in my arm yesterday, I wouldn't have believed you - but you deffinately get to a point of exhaustion where even the most squeamish are able to ignore the 600ml/hour fluid pump screaming through your veins.

Meanwhile, I'm trying to get my contract with Navara on paper - we have a project kickoff this afternoon with an account that has the potential for a long-term relationship with a guy like me. I feel crazy for even exploring the idea of working, but I've been very honest about my situation and they seem to be cool with it. It's nuts that I actually have more work to do now that I'm in Chemo - or at least more oppertunity; don't worry, this therapy is my number one job - money gig's are secondary.

Then just when I was feeling drained again this morning, a few people messaged me. Uncle Dan checked in and offered up some encouraging words even though he's feeling sick - feel better buddy!

Dave has been sick too, but he seems to be doing better. I haven't been able to see him, even though he lives in the next building, because my immune system is so defficient that I'm afraid to be around anything - it could land me in the hospital. He also sent me this LINK about Greenspan checking out the national sales tax!!! YAAAAY!!! Read it, love it - thanks Dave!

I can't get over it - Brad's idea is being discussed by Greenspan...